I've struggled with my weight since 2004. It was that time that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism.
Before that I averaged size 7, around 125 pounds. Now I'm at 190, size 14.
I've stopped talking about, but I need to start again. Why did I stop talking? People would assume it's my fault. They would assume that my thyroid pill would take care of it. I even had an endocrinologist tell my husband to buy me bigger clothes.
People, a thyroid pill is not a magic cure. You still have symptoms. You still struggle with weight.
I don't eat horribly unhealthy food. I don't eat all the time. I do move around. I don't sit on my ass all the time. Although the more I've struggled with this lately, the more I've sat around. I'm tired of trying and not seeing any results, so why try? I trained for and completed a 1/2 marathon last year. Not a pound lost.
There's my introduction.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Journaling
This has really been helpful. It keeps me focused, forces me to think about things, and helps me to achieve my goals.
Before I was trying to do everything at once. I've recently listed out what I want to do/be, and rated most important and most work. I came up with simple things to get by with the least important things, like being a good employee, because I am already that. For improving my diet, right now I'm just working on eating vegetables everyday.
The big things have bigger things to do. Like connecting with my daughter. That takes a lot of work/planning/ideas. She is a teenager and mom time is the last thing on her list.
If I were to try to do it all, like I have in the past, then everything would just be mediocre. This way I can work big on the important stuff, while just getting by with other stuff. And when that important stuff gets easier, or the goal is met, I can move on and focus more on another area.
So far it is working and my stress level is more bearable. Before I just had to have EVERYTHING perfect and NOW. I'm learning to say ok, this is my focus, let's improve this and then we can look at something else. And rating things helps: what needs the most work - what am I already good at - what can get by for now and be a focus later - what can I delegate - who can I ask for help - what area of my life needs me the most right now - and on and on...
My journal is at work (I do it over my lunch break). I'll make a copy of my list page and talk some more about that this weekend. Then it might make more sense to the blog world.
Before I was trying to do everything at once. I've recently listed out what I want to do/be, and rated most important and most work. I came up with simple things to get by with the least important things, like being a good employee, because I am already that. For improving my diet, right now I'm just working on eating vegetables everyday.
The big things have bigger things to do. Like connecting with my daughter. That takes a lot of work/planning/ideas. She is a teenager and mom time is the last thing on her list.
If I were to try to do it all, like I have in the past, then everything would just be mediocre. This way I can work big on the important stuff, while just getting by with other stuff. And when that important stuff gets easier, or the goal is met, I can move on and focus more on another area.
So far it is working and my stress level is more bearable. Before I just had to have EVERYTHING perfect and NOW. I'm learning to say ok, this is my focus, let's improve this and then we can look at something else. And rating things helps: what needs the most work - what am I already good at - what can get by for now and be a focus later - what can I delegate - who can I ask for help - what area of my life needs me the most right now - and on and on...
My journal is at work (I do it over my lunch break). I'll make a copy of my list page and talk some more about that this weekend. Then it might make more sense to the blog world.
Friday, January 20, 2012
Oh my. It seems I come by about once a year, then leave. No more.
I don't know what kind of content you will find here. Probably a bunch of rambling about thousands of different things. I will have something to say here at least once a week. Promise. No, take that back. Promises are bad.
Right now I'm working on journaling at least three times a week. I have so much in my head. And I get home and I sit down and I do nothing. I'm overwhelmed. I thought once school was done, things would be better. Well, it's done, and I'm still not doing anything. What's my excuse now? I'm not letting myself have one. I need to get things done. Period.
Right now I'm working on journaling at least three times a week. I have so much in my head. And I get home and I sit down and I do nothing. I'm overwhelmed. I thought once school was done, things would be better. Well, it's done, and I'm still not doing anything. What's my excuse now? I'm not letting myself have one. I need to get things done. Period.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
New blog
Ok, I'm not going to be updating this blog for awhile. I'm focused on this marathon and fundraising thing, so I started a blog specific to that.
http://stephanie.runningwithapurpose.com/
Feel free to follow me there! I'll be back here after San Diego!!
http://stephanie.runningwithapurpose.com/
Feel free to follow me there! I'll be back here after San Diego!!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Time wasters
My goal for this year is to stop time wasters. Facebook has become a huge time waster for me. I even play those stupid games!!
This month I have deleted all but one game. I know, I need to stop the last one too. Maybe I'll do that next.
I have also started to 'hide' people's post that I really don't need to see. I have some very old friends on there from high school. It's nice to be able to catch up through them on FB, but I don't need to see their every post. I also have some people who really aren't considered friends, just people I know. I really don't need to see their every post! This 'hiding' has saved lots of time on FB.
This is my time waster focus for January. I need to pick one for February to focus on.
What are your time wasters?
This month I have deleted all but one game. I know, I need to stop the last one too. Maybe I'll do that next.
I have also started to 'hide' people's post that I really don't need to see. I have some very old friends on there from high school. It's nice to be able to catch up through them on FB, but I don't need to see their every post. I also have some people who really aren't considered friends, just people I know. I really don't need to see their every post! This 'hiding' has saved lots of time on FB.
This is my time waster focus for January. I need to pick one for February to focus on.
What are your time wasters?
Friday, January 21, 2011
Why am I running a half-marathon?
On January 3rd, my cousin's grand-daughter was diagnosed with Leukemia. The same day that I heard the news, I got a brochure in the mail about running a marathon for the Leukemia Society. I tossed it in the trash, as I have never run in my life. I look at those people who do run like they are crazy.
A couple nights later I'm at dinner with some friends. We get to talking and find out about 4 of us got that brochure. We decided to go to the informational meeting. Two of us showed up!
As I was sitting through the meeting, I was thinking about another cousin, who had leukemia about 20 years ago. Man this make me feel old! I was 16 and he was 3. I spent alot of time in the hospital entertaining him. Man, he was such a trooper! It's amazing the courage kids can have, alot times more than adults!
Anyways, after about 3 years of being in and out of the hospital, he was ok. He's a great young man now. I was also remembering what his family was going through, his parents didn't handle it as well as he did, neither did his older brother (who was neglecting during the whole process). His parents divorced and his brother has been in and out of jail.
It's not just the patient who needs help, it's also the family.
My senior year English teacher passed away this month from Leukemia, and a nurse from my small hometown died yesterday from another form of cancer.
Back to the meeting...as I was reading the application someone asked if anyone was from the East side of town. I raised my hand without looking up. It was a reporter! She rushed over, took my picture and started asking me questions. My picture is going to be in the newspaper. I was committed. I couldn't back out at this point.
Everything just kind of played out in a way that I felt I needed to do this.
So, on June 5th, I will be in San Diego running 13.1 miles. Wow!
I have to raise $2,900.
Honestly, I'm more scared of running than I am of raising the money!
I'll keep you posted on my training.
A couple nights later I'm at dinner with some friends. We get to talking and find out about 4 of us got that brochure. We decided to go to the informational meeting. Two of us showed up!
As I was sitting through the meeting, I was thinking about another cousin, who had leukemia about 20 years ago. Man this make me feel old! I was 16 and he was 3. I spent alot of time in the hospital entertaining him. Man, he was such a trooper! It's amazing the courage kids can have, alot times more than adults!
Anyways, after about 3 years of being in and out of the hospital, he was ok. He's a great young man now. I was also remembering what his family was going through, his parents didn't handle it as well as he did, neither did his older brother (who was neglecting during the whole process). His parents divorced and his brother has been in and out of jail.
It's not just the patient who needs help, it's also the family.
My senior year English teacher passed away this month from Leukemia, and a nurse from my small hometown died yesterday from another form of cancer.
Back to the meeting...as I was reading the application someone asked if anyone was from the East side of town. I raised my hand without looking up. It was a reporter! She rushed over, took my picture and started asking me questions. My picture is going to be in the newspaper. I was committed. I couldn't back out at this point.
Everything just kind of played out in a way that I felt I needed to do this.
So, on June 5th, I will be in San Diego running 13.1 miles. Wow!
I have to raise $2,900.
Honestly, I'm more scared of running than I am of raising the money!
I'll keep you posted on my training.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I am crazy!
Ok, so to add to this semester I'm training for a half marathon!! I've never run a day in my adult life. This is pretty scary!
I'll post more details later, just want to get this out there! It's the only way to hold myself accountable.
I'll post more details later, just want to get this out there! It's the only way to hold myself accountable.
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