Thursday, January 26, 2012


This has really been helpful.  It keeps me focused, forces me to think about things, and helps me to achieve my goals. 
Before I was trying to do everything at once.  I've recently listed out what I want to do/be,  and rated most important and most work.  I came up with simple things to get by with the least important things, like being a good employee, because I am already that.  For improving my diet, right now I'm just working on eating vegetables everyday. 
The big things have bigger things to do.  Like connecting with my daughter.  That takes a lot of work/planning/ideas.  She is a teenager and mom time is the last thing on her list.

If I were to try to do it all, like I have in the past, then everything would just be mediocre.  This way I can work big on the important stuff, while just getting by with other stuff.  And when that important stuff gets easier, or the goal is met, I can move on and focus more on another area. 

So far it is working and my stress level is more bearable.  Before I just had to have EVERYTHING perfect and NOW.  I'm learning to say ok, this is my focus, let's improve this and then we can look at something else.  And rating things helps: what needs the most work - what am I already good at - what can get by for now and be a focus later -  what can I delegate - who can I ask for help - what area of my life needs me the most right now - and on and on...

My journal is at work (I do it over my lunch break).  I'll make a copy of my list page and talk some more about that this weekend.   Then it might make more sense to the blog world. 

Friday, January 20, 2012

Oh my. It seems I come by about once a year, then leave. No more.

I don't know what kind of content you will find here. Probably a bunch of rambling about thousands of different things. I will have something to say here at least once a week. Promise. No, take that back. Promises are bad.

Right now I'm working on journaling at least three times a week. I have so much in my head. And I get home and I sit down and I do nothing. I'm overwhelmed. I thought once school was done, things would be better. Well, it's done, and I'm still not doing anything. What's my excuse now? I'm not letting myself have one. I need to get things done. Period.